You know how just one thing can change everything about your life? If you had done just one thing different… I’ve been thinking about all of the different ways in which my life could have been different if I had made a different choice in one area of my life or another.
I love my life now, and I have no regrets, but isn’t it kinda fun sometimes to think about what might have been different?
Like okay, say I never went to college. What would I be doing? Well, I’m tellin’ you right now that I’d have probably stayed at Whirlpool for at least a couple of years straight on till dawn. I don’t know for how long, though. Here’s the thing: if I hadn’t gone to college, I would most certainly have remained in Fremont. I’d have moved out into my own apartment or rented a house somewhere. Eventually, I probably would have moved into office work at Whirlpool (I do type on average 116 words a minute) and married someone from there. We would have gotten married at a Catholic church and had our reception at Ole Zim’s (you know what I’m talkin’ about, Fremont people), and honeymooned in Florida.
By now, I would have probably had our first baby and might be considering the next in about a year and a half. Every Sunday we’d have dinner with my parents. I’d probably join a book club and still be writing (about what, I’m not sure). I’d walk around the Grove. I’d snuggle up to my husband every night.
But here is the downside–I’d have never met any of my friends from Ashland (all I love dearly) and I would have never met the folks at UNCW (most of whom I love dearly), and I would have never met Mike. I wouldn’t have my BA or my MFA, and I wouldn’t be working at this incredible job right now. Both scenarios could have worked. It’s weird, but they could have. But this one brings me much more happiness (and often much more strife–long distance relationships suck).
I’m happy to be where I am.